where's myself?

halo readers! (hhmmm... i bet there's no reader reading anyways)

being so down today~
why? being pang bui ki today o~
it's a normal thing? ya, it is...
then why are u down of? sigh...

just a few thoughts in my mind?
whats the purpose u treat ppl nice n good?
make myself happier or... scared ppl dislike u?
what do u get for doing so?
happy.... or just something ppl take it for granted?
are u being yourself while u're doing so?
yes... oh well! it's a NO. i lost my principle for that!

you said u're dissapointed i dont borrow u my guitar.
oh please! it's new.. of coz i sayang it ma...
takkan i dun borrow, like that u beh song me ma rite?
so... because of that, so borrowed mine to u...
n then? what did i get? tiredness carrying back!
n what again? i dun sense any happiness for me when i borrow my guitar out wa~


i feel so stupid doing all these kind of things to try to make them happy...
but where diana? I can't find myself anymore~~~~~~~
everyday scared ppl angry of u...
everyday trying ur best to be someone reliable?
whats the point of doing that?
losing ur own self-characteristic...
so whats the point?
WHATS THE POINT?!

^^

i like the feeling he's waiting for me today~

i feel safe and someone to rely on~

Feelings~

it's been awhile since i left my blog abandoned.

oh ya!
grandma passed away edi~
after the few days i did the last post.
honest speaking, i was not sad..
maybe i was prepared for that... =)

life at campus now... damn busy...
busy about presentation, notice board competition, keroncong...

oh ya! i spent RM300++ on a guitar...
hehek... hope it worth it!

i'm trying to make myself happy,
but why?
i still feel something is missing?
someone who i can really talk to...

mayb it's my faith i wont meet my another partner?
i may seem desperate, but i'm not, ok?
i still have my own principle!
i can't stand reading love story.
i cant stand reading love notes on facebook!
i can't stand ppl's facebook punya couple photo!
i can't stand ppl saying how good is it to have another half!
i can't stand ppl's facebook saying in relationship!
i can't stand ppl starting a new relationship!
i can't stand listening to love song!
ARGH!!!!!!! kill me! i running away with all of these..
i feel so damn down knowing all of these.
it's not like i dislike couple, juz felt so kosong... =(

i'm trying to make myself feel that i'm actually used to the single life,
but i'm not lo!

fine! get used to it! there's no other way to choose anyway...

gambateh!