where's myself?

halo readers! (hhmmm... i bet there's no reader reading anyways)

being so down today~
why? being pang bui ki today o~
it's a normal thing? ya, it is...
then why are u down of? sigh...

just a few thoughts in my mind?
whats the purpose u treat ppl nice n good?
make myself happier or... scared ppl dislike u?
what do u get for doing so?
happy.... or just something ppl take it for granted?
are u being yourself while u're doing so?
yes... oh well! it's a NO. i lost my principle for that!

you said u're dissapointed i dont borrow u my guitar.
oh please! it's new.. of coz i sayang it ma...
takkan i dun borrow, like that u beh song me ma rite?
so... because of that, so borrowed mine to u...
n then? what did i get? tiredness carrying back!
n what again? i dun sense any happiness for me when i borrow my guitar out wa~


i feel so stupid doing all these kind of things to try to make them happy...
but where diana? I can't find myself anymore~~~~~~~
everyday scared ppl angry of u...
everyday trying ur best to be someone reliable?
whats the point of doing that?
losing ur own self-characteristic...
so whats the point?
WHATS THE POINT?!